blow me away wind.

as I lay in solitude, oh what's a boy supposed to do?
I shake the very thought of you, me together, I remember.
late nights when I stay up late, all I do is wait and wait
you're never coming home to me.
that's the hardest thing to see.

all about love...again

I'm not stupid but sometimes I let stupidity wins. why? well, love makes you stupid. hahaha. beautiful lie? nah, it's the ugly truth made beautiful if you choose a wider view, a higher perspective, a finer definition. ever heard people said this? if you love something, never let it go but love yourself enough to learn when to walk away. often heard right? you see, in a higher definition, love makes you stupid yet it teaches you to be smart.
so choose love dearly. choose the love that makes you stupid for the happiness of the one you love, the love that makes you smart to guide you both through it. love isn't hard. it's just something for you to learn and live with.

just a weak peasant.

how does things work out? in Islam, they always thought us how. simple 3 steps you need to always do. work on what you want, pray to Allah and lastly, let Allah decides. well, sounds simple doesn't it? but always we all disregard the prays. I guess that's why I never had why I feel I deserve. most of the times I just put in the efforts and let Allah decides. seldom had I really pray to Allah for what I hoped for, for what I wish, for what I need. need to do more prayers. there's a lot of uncertainties in my life right now. and in this holy month of Ramadhan that I wish I can rebuild the bridge I often let burned with the Almighty creator.

Ya Allah, forgive me for my wrongs. help me, guide me for a better me. I have sinned a lot. I have forgotten Your commands. who am I to walk on Your earth, to live under Your sky while neglecting Your prayers. forgive me and send me Your guidance for I am just a weak peasant on Your world. Amin.

just a thought.

sometimes, people didn't stay in your present but they might be there in the future. but most of the times, they didn't stay just because they never see their future with you. don't depend on that "sometimes". rare cases don't often happen. that's why they're called rare. I mean, look at yourself. do you think you're good enough for someone to wait for the future to be with you? pat your chest, ask your self. (tepuk dada tanya selera). hahaha. but yeah, that's life. that's how reality are. so, make you a better self. you won't miss the great things in your present and you certainly won't lose out on your future.

brainwash

I'm still making plans with you in my head. so damn pathetic. oh dear brain, what the hell is wrong with you? please stop it yeah. you and your own life, you and your own plan. nobody's in it and nobody's gettin out of it. get it?

change your mind I can't.

there's only so much one can ask for. :)

Change Your Mind

There you are with your perfect way
You’ve got that little shine in your eyes
To hear one word would make my day
But there’s no room for me in your life

Oh you’ve got me down on my knees
Oh and in my mind I can see
How perfect everything could be
But you won’t give us a try

If I could change your mind
How would you want me
Would you say you need me
Cause I need you now

I try to move on but your perfect way
Has got this little child asking why
But this world keeps spinning
As my heart stops beating
Is there still no room inside

Oh you’ve got me down on my knees
Oh and in my mind I can see
How perfect everything could be
But you won’t give us a try

If I could change your mind
How would you want me
Would you say you need me
Cause I need you now

If I could change your mind
(Please tell me I’m not the only one)
(Please help me believe I’m not the only one)
If I could change your mind

If I could change your mind
How would you want me
Would you say you need me
Cause I need you now
If I could change your mind
How would you hold me
Would you stay forever
Or just leave me here to drown

If I could change your mind
(Change your mind)
If I could change your mind
(Change your mïnd)

on my way.

On My Way

I Wasn't there the moment you first learned to breathe
But I'm on my way
On my way
I wasn't there the moment you got off your knees
But I'm on my way
On my way

Lay down
And come alive in all you've found
All you're meant to be
And for now
We'll wait until the morning light
And close our eyes to see
Just close your eyes to see

A tear must have formed in my eye
When you had your first kiss
But I'm on my way
On my way
So leave a space deep inside for everything I'll miss
Cause I'm on my way
On my way

Lay down
And come alive in all you've found
All you're meant to be
And for now
We'll wait until the morning light
And close our eyes to see
Just close your eyes to see

And when you feel no saving grace
Well I'm on my way
On my way
And when you're bound to second place
Well I'm on my way
On my way
So don't believe it's all in vain
Cause I'm on my way
On my way
The light at the end is worth the pain
Cause I'm on my way
On my way

I'll be there the morning you come out in white
Cause I'm on my way
On my way