no post to post since the post office is close..it's late at night already..if you need to post something, post it tomorrow when the post office opens. enough said, no post to post..posto posto posto!

promises/claims?

two different words, can be used in the same context.

promises are made and broken. claims are made and sometimes you get it and sometimes you don't. now isn't it easier to give words that can be claimed (or not) rather than making promises that you will break? you choose.

see, I find it hard to believe in promises. because like claims, promises are just words. don't make it more than that if you don't plan on keeping it. or easier, don't promise. but unlike claims, promise always resides deep in a person heart. it's something they hold on to. that's what life is supposed to have. promises that can be trust. and everybody wants a good life.

on the other hand, claims are easier to break because it's not a promise and people won't be too hurt by it. because you know, some claims you can have but some of them you can't. you might get a claim from your boss. but maybe not from a friend or family or acquaintance. when you talk about claims, you're never really sure you'll get it. it's not that hard. rather than "I promise.", change it to "I try." or "I will do my best" until you really believe you can make it a promise.

make the change. make world a better place. make life easier for others. you don't change the world in a finger-snap or a blink of an eye. it takes time.

that's why I love words. or maybe because that's all I have to keep.



p/s. DO NOT use claims as an escape route, or for your entertainment. only use them for uncertainties. it's better to promise BUT only if you DO mean it.

I miss her 32 cup A . . . .

yeah, I miss it. I crave it. so beautiful, so peaceful, so gorgeous, so perfect, so soft. melting me, calming me down. OH, I MISS IT!

okay now, don't be ridiculous. save your dirty thoughts because it's just a code laa bro! hahaha. just a code to a game we guys played once. 32 cup A is just a code for 'smile'. and yes I said it, I miss her smile.

missing it so much. lift me up everytime I caught the glimpse of it. maybe she doesn't know. but there's a reason to my stares. staring at her just to carve that pretty big smile on that pretty little face. oh just how it brightens me up. she used to say her lips are too small and not sexy but she just doesn't realize how great those lips are.

yeah, I miss it cause I've been missing it. missed it for a while.

well, no. a smile isn't just a smile. ain't easy to rock a smile on your face. you can have angel like, model wise looks or if you compared it to singing, even if your look is pitch perfect, doesn't mean you can hum out a perfect smile. but again, I missed it. so sad, yeah so sad. truth hurts. bittersweet reality.

people said the greatest thing only comes once. so here I am, a humble peasant, building on luck, hunting a leprechaun, wishing to stumble upon the perfect smile just to glow me up.

take a guess. what is a thing that is fair and square? nope, you don't really need to.

life's a turmoil. you can't always imagine it as a laminar flow. no matter how hard you try, there's always that separation point where it becomes turbulent. okay, sorry for the aviation language :p but the point is, life is rough. no, it's not unfair. trust me, it isn't. it is as fair and square as a fair white square. hahaha. you know what I mean, a square, white in colour. it's fair because it's white. ahh, go figure it out yourself. I'm sorry if I'm living in a higher imagination level than you guys are :p

okay2, back to the main story. why do I say life is fair, life is just? because of the karma rules, because of the 3rd Newton Law, because it is stated in the Holy Quran. what goes around comes around. every action has a reaction. every good deeds will be redeemed with good returns, every bad deeds will face bad redemption no matter how big or how small that deed is. life is fair. you got into trouble, don't swear to life. don't swear, it ain't good. troubles are rather a test. you reap what you sow. you navigate out of the sea of sorrow and you'll surely find the land of happiness. you invest your money, you'll get your dividend. you loan money, you have to pay the interest. you waste your money, you'll have nothing left. that's life. it gives and it takes. it takes away your joy and give you sufferings for your benefit. for you to grow. for you to learn. for you to gain something out of it.

that is life. it is fair. it is real. it is good. it is wonderful.

the only issue is do we believe it? do we learn from life? do we ever really think? step your ego down, start humbling and retrace yourself. if all you get is bad bananas, no ripe juicy ones, then it is your own fault. you never learn from life. it's not that hard. retrace your every step in your life. what have you done wrong. try to correct it. love yourself. don't let it keep on suffering for your own mistakes.

but more important is, be patient, keep your faith. it'll pay. there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. it's our choice to either stay in the darkness of the tunnel or push your way out from that tiny hole to reach that glimpse of light. because if you choose right, there will be rays of shining bright lights awaiting.

have a peace of mind, think about it, and you are good to go through life. :)

how is it wonderful without you? I still have no clue.

last night, you came again. into my dream. yes, it's different than the night before. I don't know what is it but it's all about us. maybe that's just my projection of our memories. maybe It's just what I want us to be. or maybe I'm just missing you too much. yup, I'm screwed. I know. keep telling myself. waking up at 3am and feeling broken that the dream won't last longer or even forever. that's all I have. dreams.

I know I've been too much. to those who are reading, I'm sorry if all these posts are just annoying to your eyes. I'll get back to my writing way, maybe. I'm just down too low. people look at me and they know that something's wrong. like I don't belong. I tripped on my way in to this love. I got kicked outside. everybody saw. everybody knew. but nothing can they do. my heart is true. only wants you. but the fact is, dreams just won't come true. yeah, I do dream bout me and you. but who am I to dream? dreams are for fools. they let you down.

I know there's a lot more to this world. I know that it's a wonderful world but right now, I just can't feel it. I thought I was doing well, but all I want is to cry now. I know that it's a wonderful world. from the sky, down to the sea. I know it is......but I can only see it when you're here with me.

just let me be......at least for some while..

g.o.n.e

a dream. or was it a nightmare? I just don't know. was just another lonely night to endure till you walk in again. you walk in again into my dream. supposed to be happy to see your face again, to watch you smile again, to hear you laugh again, to feel you're near again. I'm supposed to feel happy. but instead, it's just a nightmare. you didn't talk to me, smile to me, didn't even bother to look at me. even in it you walk away again. walk away and leave me cold. my life's a turmoil already. why must my dream follow suit?

I don't know what  this means. you know, I've been sitting here can't get you out my mind. I'm trying my best to be a man and be strong. I've drove myself insane wishing I could touch you face. time passes slowly now. guess that's my life without you. I've been holding on to you. I still love you. maybe this dream is a sign. I don't know. I'm afraid to move on but the truth remains that you are gone.......but I am not.

you are a song in my head.

as always, my thoughts keep on reeling back to you. tonight I hear your voice again and you just don't know how I miss it, how I yearn it. I'm screwed, stuck. you're just like a song in my head. never can be forgotten. yes, people said time heals but time keeps me rewinding to the thought of you and me wrapping in our arms. and it hurts to go back to the real time where you're nowhere near me. I just can't forget you my love.

I'm scared, afraid of the day that I'll stop remembering you because that's gonna be the day that I die. you are like a song in my head. you left a light on in my heart. you left it on with no one in there to switch it off. when I'm gone, do me a favour. turn the light off, stop that song from playing. you know I can't stop loving you.