I hate you but above all that.....................

I hate the way you hurt me. Like I'm you're emotional punching bag.

I hate the way you keep complaining. Keep on making me feel incomplete.

I hate the way you keep shutting me down. Leaving me alone without a note.

I hate the way you make me feel. Making me angry but guilty for being it.

I hate the way you keep things from me. Am I here in your life or not? 

I hate the way you make me wait. As if time is my best friend. 

I hate the way you're being silent. Don't you know I miss hearing your voice? 

I hate the way you're testing my patient. I am human enough to have limits.

I hate the way you always want to win. Am I always the one to blame? 

No matter how I hate the way you act, I hate losing you more. More than you will ever know. More than I'll ever know.

Because above all that, to you, I'm the one you choose to pour your emotions to. 

Because above all that, you makes me feel lucky. To be incomplete but still having you in me. 

Because above all that, you left quietly so I won't be more hurt. 

Because above all that, you reminds me how much I care that I rather forgive and forget than staying mad. 

Because above all that, you made me your life. Other things are just irrelevant and are not important. 

Because above all that, even you make me wait, you still show that you are worth it. 

Because above all that, you are just being silent so that you can hear me, so that I know how much you miss me. 

Because above all that, your beautiful smile is worth more than my patience. 

Because above all that, I know you will always fight to back me up. That's why you always want to win. 

Because above all that, you are my world. 

Because above all that, I'll die if I lose you. 

Because above all that, I love you. 

I love you more than I can ever hate you. 

I love you more than you can ever know. I love you more than I will ever know. 

Because above all that, my heart is only for you, my heart has only you, my love is only for you.

You're Going Soon.................

Baby,

You're going soon,

I dont know how i'll do without you.

You're going soon,

I'll miss talking you.

You're going soon,

Not hearing your voice makes me blue.

You're going soon,

I'll be missing my baby you.

You're going soon,

Far away I'll be apart from you.

You're going soon,

But I know I'll always have you.

You're going soon,

But I'm going nowhere waiting for you.

You're going soon and you'll be back soon,

Just promise me you'll take care of you.

You're going soon,

But I'll be right here waiting for you.

You're going soon,

I'll be missing you.

You're going soon,

I miss you.

You're going soon.....

Superman

we know him. no matter kiddos or oldies, we know him. he's the man that moves in the speed of light, the man that catches crashing airplanes, the man that wear undies over his pants (not really a pants though), the man that changes clothes in a phone booth without worries. he's so cool he can make ice out of fire. he's so hot he can turn ice into fire. damn, he is SUPER!!

by the way, I just got back from playing futsal after being absent for a while. the ball misses me! and I missed the ball and the goal several times too (I mean failed to control the ball and failed to score). okay2, what does superman got to do with this? you surely have no idea. well, me too. dont believe me? read my blog's title!

alright alright, here's the deal. It has been long since the last time i played futsal. so i got too pumped up that as soon as the game begins, I started running around the court like hell. I chased the ball everywhere it went in haste! I really really went full speed! guess what? I ended up breathless, my lungs feel out of control and i feel dizzy. so, why superman? because he's the only person who can speed up from 0-80,000,000,000 miles per hour in 1 second without warming up. he is SUPERMAN okay!! what im trying to say is, if you haven't been active in sport for a long period, start with warming ups. jog around for several minutes, let your heart get the rhythm first cause again, you ain't no Superman. luckily I dont think I have any serious heart problems or else I might be writing this entry from heaven. posted via Heavenly Fast Internet. well, that is if Im going straight there. hehehe. 

so, the moral of the story is, warm up before you're trying to burst your lungs running madly around! dont try to show off unless Kryptonite makes you weak. be healthy lah eh. good day mate!

WELCOME!!!!

Whoah!!! Wait a sec! Im not actually welcoming you all to my blog. Im welcoming meself to the whole new world of me. The world without border, the world with words, the world where everything is at the tip of your fingers, the world of I dont know what it is, the world of writing, the world of pouring yourself inside out, the world of whatever the world is. Okay, Im being ridiculous. It's just the world of blogging. Yeah yeah, I know Im being excited but you know what happened when you do new things. Well, since this isn't a job, it should be not boring right? I hope so it isn't cause if it is I'll straight away delete this!! Hahaha..okay2, Im done being ludicrous. You all are welcomed in here. You can even help me post some entries if you might!! Hehe..

Well, WELCOME!!!! 

By the way, the reason Im starting this is because someone said she's addicted to my words! :) OMG!! Now Im worried! Will I be prosecuted or something? Since my words are like drugs, addictive...do they have an act for that?? hahaha..well, I dont want to be sentenced to death you know since my words are heavy and for the law against drug dealers, there are certain amount of weight  of drugs you are not allowed to carry or else you will be eligible for the death row..but anyway, I dont really care if my words are too heavy cause all I know is if my death sentence are from her, then I'll be happy to die for her :p

okay2, here's the deal...I dont really know how to start here but I love quotes and I love making them up myself too..maybe I'll start with that..so, to dear YOU, enjoy these words of mine kay ;)

"im not the kind that fight but i should have fought for you!

 

i found peace in your every smile, love..so smile, smile when i'm awake, smile even when in my sleep.

 

life is like a never ending canvas..u paint it your own way and u dont stop painting even u ran out of paint.

gravity may take me down but hey, i still can fly high!

when they say money can buy you happiness, they're not wrong. they just forget to say that it's just a temporary happoiness.

u struck me deep, make my heart beep, dont leave and make it bleed, for you are in my heart to keep, in my wake and in my sleep.

your love needs no action, still im giving you attention, for you are my only exception.

maybe being the last is being the best but why save it for last when you can have it now?

false hopes are like planes with half filled fuel tanks..they get you up high and crush you down low, really low.

I've slept the extra hours but I still can't find you. which dream are you in? Oh wait, you're no dream. you're real! :)

I dont's wanna just meet you in my dream so I sleep with my eyes open.

 

I need only two things, you and only you

I won't just give you a shoulder to cry on. I'll give you arms for you to hold on to.

If I'm an architect and a chemist, I'll build a dream, sedate myself and I'll make sure my sub-conscious projects you in it.

I'm fine being in a limbo as long as you are in it :) "